Lose Yourself.

Hi,.

I'm at the point in the day where I'm about to just snap out. Maybe its postpartum depression of turning twenty one and finally being officially legalized. But I doubt it, highly doubt it at that. I am so not happy anymore. Everything but my jobs are making me happy. I honestly am not happy with what I'm doing. I'm not lazy, trust me on that. I just feel like I'm about to have a melt down. I'm not happy. I'm not happy at all. It makes me so frustrated to know that I am driving myself crazy.. with all these decisions to make and I'm so lost in the sauce right now. Oh my gosh... I can cry a whole river for myself but I refuse to girl about this. Why cry? I can get through anything. This shouldn't stop me from being happy but it is.. it really is.

That's all I got to say right now.

But I will add that I want a career, not just a job.